I caught myself saying that I can quit farming any time I want to now that the debts have been paid, but I just don't want to yet. Then I was reminded about the old joke where an alcoholic says "I'm not an alcoholic, I can quit any time I want to. I just don't want to."
Could I be addicted to farming?
That was e.g. Marilyn Monroe in Some Like it Hot.
I'm not sure that addiction is the right word, but when I was farming, the style of life had a kind of all-encompassing nature which seemed to exclude anything else. There was always something that needed doing which seemed more urgent and more interesting than anything not related to the farm. Especially during lambing, when I didn't even bother to answer the phone - it was just not important. Fixating on a strenuous task can become all-consuming.