Aphotick

Yeah, I'm reading a few books with more of a happy theme to them as well. Guess I'm stubborn alright.

I'm probably one of those most aware of life's ability to be dreary as much as it can lovely at times. It's just with the thoughts I have, it's not best to be unable to make final decisions or ever settle a thought. It's very bad, hahah. I don't know about that whole gardening/hobby idea... I think my situation is a bit different than what you may have thought. I've tried many times to get out of this spiral of course. But thank you for the suggestions. <3.

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The fact that I struggle the most in life with myself or thoughts and am unable to solve or conclude most of them. It's driving me crazy.

I think the book I'm currently reading would be appreciated by some of the people here. It's called "The Ethics Of Ambiguity". It's written by Simone De Bouvoir. She was a great novelist, dramatist, philosopher, and the most distinguished woman writer in modern France. In the book she attacks the "central" ethical problem of modern man. It's a bit complex for many. But it's much easier to understand if you can relate to the topics personally in any way. And it's very blunt. <3.

I have two pets. Linky is our white poddle/Maltese. We have it because my mother decided she had to have one. But Linky and my Father are the ones who have bonded in the end. :cup: Cutie is my obese white/light brown cat. A couple years ago our former cat ran away that my Father was very close to. But because I wasn't, I found this as an opportunity to get a new pet. So I went to the Fremont Animal Shelter and found Cutie as a kitten climbing up the cage to see me. And we've loved each other ever since.