A generalist? Jack of all trades and master of none? A scientist wannabe past his time? Usually so far off the beaten track that rarely do the tracks cross? On the way to being a physicist, I tried to fly too high first go, and crash landed so hard that it has been hobbling around ever since. Several times I thought I had found the way for accessing space in a big way, but was easily out-shouted by others hawking their different kind of wares. I console myself by putting my ideas on my web pages that nobody sees, and by writing science fiction novels freely available in the same places, also which nobody reads. In retirement from a career in electronics, I have taken up a new part of science, marine biology, volunteer work doing nitty gritty stuff re Isopods, little insect-like critters that live on the bottom of the sea. I'm ever at the task of trying to figure out why people did what they did, in hopes of avoiding being in their way the next time. And I wonder, is there some way, some routine technique or tool, that would that would enable one to strive determinedly toward a worthy scientific goal by focusing on that best-fit connective path, yet also frequently look up and see the surrounding terrain's potentials without getting lost up there? And how to far more efficiently catch the sunlight's energy to use it to more abundantly diversely power life's great engine before re-radiating the energy back out into the darkness of space as low energy heat? And if we could engineer the means for economically building a highway to space up to high earth orbit in the near future, so as to enable building a second story to civilization there, is there some way that humans could be kept aware we are all on the same ship that needs all our efforts to stay afloat, forming a threshold to the bickering level? I've a thirst for knowledge that has become matched with the imagination of what one could do with it. But ah, time is running out, getting lots older and wiser?