vijun

The only television series that you have found engaging is Millenium. Have you ever watched some of the amazing programs on HBO? As for euthanasia, I believe that all human beings should have the right to end their lives whenever they want to. With or without the help of someone. No one should be forced to live with physical or mental pain if they don't want to live.

I am an outcast. I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time. I am tired of being a slave to my genetic code. I want to be free of my emotions. I want to escape this reality. I want to escape my body. I am tired of living in a world that is full of chemical illusions. THE HUMAN GAME What is the human game? The human game is a game that is similar to the things that all complex carbon based life forms do. Eat, defecate, and procreate. It is the eternal struggle for survival and competing with other members of their species for the right to pass on their genes. Approximately fifty percent of all of the things that human beings do involve engaging in activities to take care of their basic needs like food water and shelter. The other fifty percent is all about procreation. The mating game is what motivates women around the world to spend billions of dollars every year on things like cosmetics, jewelry, designer clothing, and plastic surgery. As a man I can tell you that the mating game motivates men to do most of the things that they do. Things like luxury cars, jewelry, and mansions would be irrelevant to most men if the mating game did not exist. The mating game also motivated men and women to go to college and university. Very few people would admit it but for most people earning a masters or Ph.D. had little or nothing to do with a person’s desire to seek out knowledge. University degrees are a status symbol that people use to try to empress other people. It is no different than birds that collect stones to attract a mate. I believe that anyone with a university degree can be put into two groups. Group one probably represents about 10% of the people with university degrees. These are the gifted individuals. These are the people with an unusually high number of neurons and dendrites in specific parts of their brains. These are the people that usually end up working for companies like Microsoft or some kind of government agency because they are mathematical geniuses, or they might have photographic memories, or perhaps they are capable of speaking over ten languages fluently. In group two you have the people that are not gifted. They may be very intelligent but there is nothing unusual about their cognitive abilities. They usually have to work hard for everything that they achieve in university. The majority of people in this group would not have gone to university if it was not for the mating game. During those long sleepless nights of studying to memorize all of the things that they have to know they are probably dreaming about five or ten years in the future when they will have the opportunity to tell an attractive women or man what they do for a living. Unfortunately I will never fit into any of those two groups because I am not gifted and I am not motivated by the mating game. Well actually I am motivated by the game but not in the same way that most people are motivated by it. During the past couple of years I realized that I could not have a sexual relationship with a woman that I am attracted to without pretending to be someone that I am not. The mating game is more trouble than it is worth for me. Over a period of time I realized that what I really desire is to have more control over the chemical reactions in my body. When I have sex with a woman my favorite part of the experience is about 30 seconds to 1 minute after I have had an orgasm. That is when I have a moment of clarity. That is when the serotonin starts to flow through my brain and I am no longer under the influence of chemicals like phenethylamine, testosterone, dopamine, norepinephrine, and adrenaline. I am sick and tired of being completely controlled by the chemical reactions in my body. I don’t want to be controlled. I want to be in control. WORDS THAT DO NOT EXIST I could write a book about the flaws in human language but I am only going to focus on two words. EVIL- If you read my first post ( Ignorance Is The Root Of All Evil ) you should know that I believe that evil does not exist. It is just a chemical illusion. It is nothing more than a combination of things like stress hormones, a lack of serotonin in the prefrontal cortex, and activity in the amygdale. Does anyone find it odd that humans associate evil with things like the darkness and snakes? Perhaps it has something to so with the fact that we are diurnal creatures and we were hunted and bitten, and stung by nocturnal creatures in the past. FREEDOM- Whenever I am watching television and I hear a politician like George W Bush say “we are fighting for freedom” I can’t help but think just how primitive we still are. Freedom does not exist. It is just another chemical illusion. No one on this planet is free. Anytime people want to use the word freedom they should use the word privileges instead. The more wealth and knowledge a person the more privileges they will have. THE ILLUSION OF DANGER After September 11th the Bush administration, the U.S media, and U.S television networks have been doing everything possible to increase the fear and anxiety of the average American. If you watched Michael Moore’s last to films you should know what I am talking about. I have noticed that after September 11th there has been several secret agent C.I.A shows on U.S television. The British have even gotten in on the game with shows like MI5. There is one thing that all of these shows have in common with each other. The villains are usually always Muslims that can’t wait to blow themselves up and get to Allah. If you went back to 80’s or early 90’s the villains in American movies or television were usually ex K.G.B agents that had access to nuclear weapons. All of this just helps to give to give people an illusion of danger. However I will admit that we are living in dangerous times, but danger has always been a part of human culture. Human beings have been killing each other for thousands of years. As a technology evolved and we had to worry less about natural disasters and predators we got bored. So we had to find creative ways to make life miserable for each other. I would rather face the dangers of the present than face the dangers of the past. I would rather be killed by a bullet or a nuclear weapon than by a sword or a stick because there is a higher probability of me being killed instantly. THE ILLUSIONS OF A TROPICAL PARADISE Imagine if some tropical countries around the world that make most of their gross national income form tourism suddenly decided to make television commercials that have an accurate portrayal of life in their country. Come to our country and experience the hot weather and the beautiful women. We also have beautiful girls and boys for the pedophiles out there that can’t get what they want in their countries. Just make sure to wear protection because you would not want to get a sexually transmitted disease. Come to our country and enjoy the social activities. If you leave your resort you can get raped, robbed, or murdered. We also have surprises in our food and water. We have tapeworms and round worms. If you walk on our beaches with no shoes on you might get lucky and attract some hook worms or creeping nematodes. Some of these worms will make crawl under your skin and make you itchy. Some of them will crawl out of your anus or your nostrils. Some of them will crawl to your brain and kill you. All of this might sound like something out of a horror movie but believe it or not it can happen. So come to our country and have some fun. SPIRITUALITY Spirituality is a chemical illusion that most people can’t live without. It is the why billions of people around the world are following some kind of organized religion. Life is just to difficult for the majority of people in this world that they need the illusion of feeling like they are one with the universe or they are being protected by an omnipotent being. Sometimes I find myself longing for the feeling of joy and wellbeing that religious people feel when they pray. It is probably why I use some of the same techniques that Buddhist use when they meditate. I also have a fantasy of contacting extraterrestrials. There is nothing that I would like more than to have some aliens take me away from the madness in this world. It may seem like an unrealistic fantasy but there is a much higher probability of me contacting extraterrestrials than me having a conversation in heaven with Jesus, Allah, or Jehovah. Some neuroscientists are currently doing research on spirituality. They are trying to find out the chemical composition of spirituality and they trying to find out which parts of the brain are active when a person has a spiritual experience. I assume that the goal of most of these doctors is to play a role in creating a pill that people can take to mimic the effects that religious people feel. If a drug like this is ever created it will probably be the best selling pharmaceutical product of all time. BUILDING BETTER BODIES Many people believe that the human body is an extraordinary piece of biological machinery. I would have to disagree. I think we are nothing more than monkeys with large brains relative to the size of our bodies. If you compared the human body with many of the other life forms on this planet you should be able to realize that the only good thing about it is the capabilities of the prefrontal cortex and perhaps the dexterity of our fingers. If it wasn’t for those two things we would probably be extinct by now. I believe two things have to be done if we want to avoid our evitable self extermination. We have to eliminate our genetic flaws by using eugenics and genetically modifying our DNA. The other thing that we have to do is merge computer science with medical science. Humans and machines have to become one. Chemical computing has to be combined with digital computing and eventually maybe even quantum computing. We can no longer allow all of our ration decisions to be made by a combination of chemical reactions in our brain. Doctors have to use any techniques that they can think of to increase the amount of neurons and dendrites in areas of the brain like the hippocampus, the orbitofrontal cortex, the dorsolateral prefrontal cortex, the Broca’s area, and the Wernicke’s area. We have to use digital computing assist us in finding the optimal chemical balance for performing physical and mental activities. We have to use evolutionary algorithms in combination with our dorsolateral cortex to make decisions. I want all of my decisions that I make to be based on probability. I also believe that nano technology could be used to control neural activity in certain parts of the brain like the amygdale. Many people have amygdales that are over active. It is the reason why so many people have irrational phobias. If we had more control over the chemistry in our bodies we would be able to go through life making the most logical decisions to get the things that we need and desire. If we wanted to engage in sexual activity it would be as simple as turning on an internal switch. Chemicals like testosterone and dopamine would gradually begin to rise. This would be the only time that we would be vulnerable to making illogical decisions. It would be similar to the way some mammals behave during their mating season or when they are in heat. DO NOT TAKE YOUR CHEMICAL ILLUSIONS FOR GRANTED Don’t take anything that you consider to be good for granted. Anytime that you are making love to your boy friend or girl friend, your husband or wife enjoy every moment and realize how lucky you are. Every time the endorphins are flowing through your blood stream and you are fooled into believing that the world is a beautiful place enjoy every moment and don’t take it for granted because misery, chaos, and destruction is the norm in the universe for carbon based life forms like us. If you happen to e the perfect example of an alpha male or female don’t take it for granted. If you have your health. If you have universal beauty (symmetry and healthy skin). If you are intelligent. If you are wealthy. If you have self confidence. Don’t take it for granted because the majority of people on this planet don’t have what you have. MY REASONS FOR WRITING THIS I wish that I could do something to change the world and make it a better place. Unfortunately my depression has impaired my cognitive abilities. I am a poor suicidal individual that just wants to escape his body and reality. I want to be connected to a realistic virtual reality or perhaps one day transfer my memories to some kind of computer chip or a genetically enhanced body. It may sound like science fiction to most people but I believe that it is possible. The possibility of escaping this reality or escaping my body is the only thing that is keeping me alive. At the moment the only thing that I can do is post letters on websites and hope that someone with similar desires to mine will read my letters and be in a position to change the world. My goal is to have an influence on people. Especially scientists and students that will become the scientists of the future. Scientists are the people that will decide how human beings will live in the future. The future will not be decided by kings, queens, religious leaders, and politicians. If you have the knowledge and the desire to change the world and make it a better place I would encourage to read my first post (Ignorance Is The Root Of All Evil) if you have read it already. I would also encourage you to take a look at the websites that you see below. Some people have the genetic and cognitive potential to achieve great things. We can chose to become gods or we can continue to live like monkeys. The future is in your hands. http://www.transhumanism.org http://www.transtopia.org http://www.imminst.org

When I finished writing this thread I could not decide if I should put it in the medical scince section or the social sicence section. In the end I decided to put it the medical science section because there is a higher probability of a doctor or a student that wants to become a clicking on it. Medical doctors are the only people that can solve the problem of pedophilia in the world. Politicians can't do anything about it. Some people have a genetic predisposition to commit acts of violence. Like I said before the problem is in our DNA.

If you or someone that you care about has been sexually assaulted you will probably be offended by some of the things that you read in this post. I hope that you will try to keep an open mind and not be controlled by your emotions while you are reading this. I decided to only focus on pedophilia in America in this post because it is a much bigger problem in other parts of the world like Central and South America, Africa, and Asia. In America 1 in 4 females will be sexually assaulted before they reach the age of 18. And 1 in 6 males will be sexually assaulted before the age of 18. THE FEMINAZATION OF AMERICA If you are a fan of Bill Maher or if you have watched his cancelled television show Politically Incorrect or his show on HBO Real Time then you probably already know what the feminization of America means. If not, it simply means that during the past 30 years the alpha males in America have begun to care more about the things that females care about because the alpha females in America have much more power than other females other parts of the world. Pedophilia is much more prevalent in male dominated societies because testosterone makes men do crazy things. The majority of males in America spend much more time worrying about children than males in Africa or Asia. In my opinion both good things and bad things have come out of this situation. I think that some people in America are too protective of their children. I could write a whole book about the irrational over protective behavior of some Americans. CULTURAL PEDOPHILIA I can’t watch American television without seeing what I consider to be cultural pedophilia, not real pedophilia. I am talking about news stories like R- Kelly and Mary K Letourneau, and the countless other stories about adults having consensual sex with teenagers or in some cases teenagers having consensual sex with teenagers. Statutory rape is not rape. It might be inappropriate in some cases but it is not rape. If you asked the average European what do they think about a 30 year old person having sex with a 15 year old person they would probably tell you it is inappropriate but it is not rape. If you asked the average American the same question they would probably tell you that it is disgusting and the adult should be sent to prison for the rest of their life. ( Especially if it is a man) I am going to write a scenario that happens on a regular basis in America. A man walks into a bar or a club. He sees a beautiful woman. They start talking. They leave the establishment to go to his place to have sex. Unfortunately he doesn’t know that the beautiful woman that he is having sex with is only 15 years old. Due to an unfortunate series of events the girl’s parents learn that their sweat innocent daughter has been violated by a monster. One week later the man hears his door bell ringing. He opens the door to be grated by police officers. “ Sir we are arresting for the rape of that beautiful innocent girl that you violated two weeks ago.” The man is convicted of statutory rape and he is sentenced to 10 years in prison. The man is beaten and gang raped while he is in prison. What is the moral of the story? One night stands can be very dangerous. I have one more thing to say about cultural pedophilia. There has been a lot of stories on the news recently about female teachers having sex with male students. Every time I see it on television I can’t help but think, why couldn’t that happen to me when I was in school. I can’t even imagine the amount of pleasure that those students must have experienced the first time they had sex with their teachers. I was not surprised not surprised by the response of the journalist psychiatrist across America. Oh those poor kids. It is so disturbing. Those kids might be traumatized for life. I don’t think it is appropriate for a teacher to have sex with her students, but if the sex was consensual it is not rape. I am tired of seeing different psychiatrist and psychologist on CNN talking about the psychological trauma that those poor kids experienced. I would like to see one psychiatrist on television with a different opinion. They usually respond by saying something like a child that is 13 or 14 is not capable of making responsible decisions and they should not be engaging in sexual activity. My response to that is it all depends on the way parents raise their children. A large percentage of Americans parents are over protective and conservative. If a child grows up in a home with parents that are liberal and not over protective the child will have a higher probability of being more mature and being more prepared for the real world at an earlier age. If you want your child to make irresponsible decisions you should keep your child in a bubble and try to control their lived as much as possible. That is something that a lot of American parents are good at. REAL PEDOPHILES- A person that is attracted to pre pubesant children or children that have begun to go through puberty. In my opinion all pedophiles can be broken down into three groups. Group 1- People that are suffering form sexual frustration. This group includes Catholic priest and shy individuals that have a hard time forming sexual relationships with adults. People in this group are usually attracted to kids because they can control them. The majority of female pedophiles are in this group. Group 2- this group includes people that had no sexual attraction to children until they were exposed to child pornography on the internet. Their interest in child pornography usually begins because they get a rush of dopamine and adrenaline form doing something that they know is wrong. As time passes by watching child pornography will become less satisfying to them. Eventually they will begin to think about what actions they will have to take to have sex with a child. Group 3- This is the most dangerous group of pedophiles. People in this group are usually attracted to children and adults. They are usually incapable of having sex without being violent. This is the one group of pedophiles that usually feel no remorse or guilt for their actions. People in this group are usually incapable of caring about anyone else but themselves. THE SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM If you read my first two posts on this site you may have realized that I believe that all of the problems in human society can be blamed on two things. Genetic flaws and primitive behavior. When I look at a murderer or rapist I don’t see evil. I see irrational information that has been stored in the individual’s brain and I see genes or amino acids to be more precise. In my opinion testicles are the biggest symbol of the so called evil that most people believe in. Testosterone causes more irrational behavior than any other chemical in the human body. Pedophilia will always be a problem in human society if we continue to be controlled by our emotions. Emotions and feeling don’t solve problems. They usually cause problems. The perfect problem solver is a highly effective dorsal lateral prefrontal cortex working in combination with evolutionary algorithms. If you want to solve a problem as big as pedophilia you have to think big. Putting someone in prison or putting them on a sex offender list is not enough. Simple solution usually can’t solve big problems. I challenge anyone reading this to try and think of a solution to solve of all of our problems, because it is the only way to solve a problem as big as pedophilia. PROTECTING YOUR CHILDREN If you really want to protect your child the best thing that you can do is prepare your child for the real world as early as possible. That means teaching your child about sex before they reach puberty. I also believe that parents should enroll their children in some kind of martial arts class as early as possible. Most people don’t know just how fragile the human body is. It doesn’t take much strength to subdue or kill someone. You just have to apply the right amount of pressure in the right place. If your child is going to be raped there is no reason why they should go down without a fight. PSYCHIATRY The majority of psychiatrist are incapable of treating pedophiles because they are not using the right techniques. If you want to reduce a pedophiles deviant desires you have to tap into the parts of their brains that they are not using. You may have heard the phrase if you don’t use it you lose it. This does not only apply to the muscles in our bodies. It also applies to neurons. Psychiatrists also have to change a pedophiles chemical preference. A rapist might have a preference for dopamine and adrenaline. The job of a psychiatrist would be to change the individual’s preference to serotonin and oxytocin while they are engaging in sexual activity. All of this is easier said than done. I have some theories on how this can be accomplished but it is too much information to put in this post. It would be more suitable for a book or a website. IF I COULD MAKE THE RULES I spend a lot of time thinking about what I would do if I had the power to write the laws that people were forced to live by. What you see below are some of the laws that I would make regarding sexuality. A person can engage in consensual sexual activity with someone under the age of 12 if their age is within 2 years of the individual. A person can engage in consensual sexual activity with someone between the ages of 12 and 16 if their age is within 5 years of the individual. The legal age of consent is 16 If someone engages in consensual illegal sexual activity with an individual over the age of 12 it is a misdemeanor offense. Incest is legal if the consensual sex is with individuals that are 18 years or older. It is a felony offense for a parent or guardian to engage in consensual sexual activity with their children if they are under the age of 18 It is a misdemeanor offense for siblings to engage in consensual sexual activity if both individuals are not over the age 18 People can possess child pornography, but it is a felony offense to produce it and to sell it.

I believe that all illegal narcotics should be legalized in every country around the world. People should have the right to do whatever they want to do with their bodies as long as they are not causing any involuntary physical harm to someone else in the process. For example, imagine that two men are in a car. The passenger takes out a cigarette but before lights it he proceeds to ask the driver “do you mind if I smoke?” If the driver responds by saying no I don’t mind he is consenting to inhale second hand smoke. Illegal narcotics will always be a problem in this world until people are willing to do something about the lack of pleasure and wellbeing that most people are living with. How many people reading this post can honestly say that they experience more pleasure than pain in their lives on regular basis? The best thing that most people can hope for is a balance of pleasure and pain. Unfortunately the majority of people on this planet experience much more physical and psychological pain than pleasure. In my opinion human culture and genetic flaws are the main reasons for these unfortunate circumstances. Our bodies are programmed to seek out pleasure but they are also programmed to engage in self destructive behavior. I am in desperate need for some kind of pleasure in my life so I can tell you a lot about self destructive behavior. So what is the solution to the problem? Well I don’t have all of the answers but I believe that I have some of them. The most important reason why narcotics should be legalized is the fact that it will put a big dent in organized crime. I also feel sorry for the thousands of people around the world that are in prison for being in possession of small amounts of an illegal substance. I believe that it should still be illegal to sell narcotics, but it should not be illegal to possess small amounts. Perhaps the best thing that politicians can do is set up a system where people can purchase a product from their government. All of the profits could be used to set up a federal medicare system in countries like the U.S.A. The only illegal substance that I have tried is marijuana. I would like to try other things like cocaine and heroin but I have no way of knowing that I am getting a safe product from the streets and I can’t find accurate information about these drugs. I believe that these drugs would be safe for most people to use if they used them in moderation. Show me a heroin addict that only injects themselves with heroin once a month. These drugs should be used the same way people use prescriptions medication. I would like to know what is a safe amount to use without becoming addicted to it?

I am a twenty-three year old male that is currently living in Montreal. I would describe myself as an eccentric self loathing, depressed human being. I dropped out of high school when I was sixteen. I never had a job. I only leave my apartment when I have to. I am currently on medication for depression and social anxiety disorder. Fortunately I was able to make a substantial amount of money from selling things on EBay and making some wise investment decisions. Unfortunately I spent most of the money that I made in a futile attempt to find happiness. I have reached a point where for the first time in my life I am having real financial difficulties. I think the money that I was making in the past was the only thing that stopped me from killing myself. I don’t know how much longer I am going to be alive; therefore I decided to post this letter on this website. I would like to communicate with individuals that have something in common with me. I would also like to educate or influence the people that are reading this; especially teenagers in high school.What you see below are some of my opinions on four different topics. EMBRACING THE IGNORANCE OF HUMANITY TRADITIONS- For some reason human beings love irrational traditions. People are still engaging in traditions that are thousands of years old. We love to live like cavemen. I am talking about things like male and female circumcision. Female circumcision may be much worse, but the idea of cutting of a peace of a boy’s penis as a part of some five thousand year old tradition just sounds stupid to me. Unfortunately I had a Jewish pediatrician that convinced my parents that it would reduce the chances of me getting penile cancer; therefore I will never be able to experience sexual pleasure the way an uncircumcised man would experience it. Another irrational tradition that human beings love is monogamy. I am not going to say much about monogamy because I am sure that most of you have already heard about the 50+ percent divorce rate in different countries around the world therefore I only have two things to say. If you are in a monogamous relationship and your partner cheats on you, you deserve exactly what you get. In my opinion the happiest couples in the world are people that are in committed open relationships. GOOD AND EVIL- In my opinion the concept of good and evil are just products of evolution. It all depends on which side you are on and what rank you have society. We are no different than a pack of wolves or a group of monkeys. Dominant males and females have the privilege to commit more acts of violence than the lower ranking individuals. In other words the violence is justified. Whenever I watch the news and I see the U.S.A fighting Al Qaeda or the Palestine’s fighting the Israelis I don’t see good on one side and evil on the other side. I see ignorance and stupidity on both sides. Some people like to think of good and evil as a positive force and a negative force or good karma and bad karma. I see it as logical and illogical behavior that is passed on in your genetic code and your culture from generation to generation. Let me explain what I mean. Imagine that an illogical act was committed over a thousand years ago in a small village in Africa, Asia, or Europe. Perhaps someone was raped or murdered. That single illogical act can cause a chain reaction that could lead to the misery and deaths of millions of people. Stress, malnutrition, and a lack of knowledge can impair the health of parents and their children. This information is then past on in their genes in the form of genetic flaws like cancer, diabetes, and even asymmetrical faces which can reduce the chances of having a good sex life. That is why I believe that everyone deserves exactly what they get. People are suffering today because of the mistakes that people made in the past. And the people of tomorrow will suffer because of the mistakes that we make in the present, unless we are willing to change the way we think and live. GODS- I also believe that the concept of god is a product of evolution. I call it the triangle philosophy. The dominant person is at the top of the triangle with the lower ranking people at the bottom. Sometimes I wonder how much people on this planet have been killed in the name of a god. Some Muslims love to kill people for Allah. In the past Christians killed people for the Lord Jesus Christ. If you go back even further you will find people that sacrificed humans to make their gods happy so their crops would grow. I just can’t believe that we are living in a world where educated individuals believe that there is a god in the sky. People are actually still teaching creation in schools all around the world. The argument that many religious scientist make is that human beings could never have evolved from single celled organisms, even though the evidence of evolution is all around us. Some scientists that do believe in evolution prefer to go back even further to the big bang. Who or what created the big bang? How can something be created from nothing? It must be god. My answer to that is it does not matter how much we have evolved or how much we will learn in the future. There will always be things that we will not know. My philosophy is, if I can’t see it, taste it, hear it, smell it, or touch then it does not exist. In the twenty- three years that I have been alive I still haven’t heard a word from a god. If people need something to believe in they should focus on Buddhism, extraterrestrials or string theory. MEDICAL SCIENCE Medical science has come along way during the past hundred years. Unfortunately it has not come far enough because of capitalism and religious and ethical reasons. In this topic I will focus neuroscience and genetics. Neuroscience- I am impressed with the progress that neuroscientist have made during the past twenty-five years especially in the fields of neurophysiology and cognitive neuroscience. In my opinion the only field of neuroscience that has not progressed that much is psychiatry. I won’t even waste my time writing about the good old days when people were being electrocuted and lobotomized for no reason. I am not satisfied with the way most psychiatrist are trying to treat depression. One problem that I have is the amount of people in North America that are on antidepressants. Writing a prescription for someone that is depressed is the first thing that most psychiatrist do. In my opinion antidepressants should only be used as a last resort. The second problem that I have with psychiatry is psychotherapy. The physical act of handing over a hundred dollars or more for an hour of a doctors time made me even more depressed than I was before I went into the office. There is nothing that a psychiatrist or a psychologist can tell me that I can’t learn from a book. Another thing that people need to know is, if there is something that you want to remain confidential keep it to yourself or get someone to sign a confidentiality contract. I had a friend that was a psychiatrist. He is now deceased. He told me everything about his patients. We would have long discussions about the different disorders and problems that his patients were living with. Some people are good at keeping secrets and some people are not. So I would advise people to be careful the next time that you go into a doctor’s office to bare your soul to someone that you have never met before in your life. However, I will admit that psychotherapy can be a good alternative to taking antidepressants if you can find the right doctor. The third problem that I have with psychiatry is doctors that are focused on keeping suicidal individuals alive instead of giving them some pleasure or trying to give them a reason to want to live. I think psychiatrist need to teach their patients more about neurophysiology and neurochemistry. They also need to develop new techniques for treating their patients. I also believe that an assisted suicide should be a part of psychiatry. It would involve putting a patient in a comfortable environment, and giving them an injection of heroin or some other narcotic to give them pleasure. The second step would involve giving them a sedative to put them to sleep. And finally dose potassium chloride to stop the heart. GENETICS- I don’t have much to say about genetics other than the fact that people have to stop using the word race to describe what they are. And geneticists have to stop thinking that eugenics is a bad thing. It is time for us to start creating better human beings. We can no longer depend on symmetry and healthy skin to decide if a person has good genes or not. VIRTUAL REALITY Virtual reality is the most important topic in this letter to me, because what I desire more than anything else is to escape reality. I hate this world and I hate my body. To me virtual reality represents an escape from my body and the ignorance of humanity. My obsession with virtual reality began when I was a teenager in high school. Back in 1994 I can remember computer scientists all around the talking and writing about the virtual reality that we would get to experience in the year 2000 and beyond. Back in the mid 90’s computer programmers were designing video games that were more realistic for consoles like the 3DO. They were not the best video games ever made but they were different than the mass produced juvenile crap that is being made today. I can remember playing realistic full motion video games in the past and enjoying the feeling of getting lost in a virtual world even though the games were not in 3D. By 1999 I realized that the virtual world that I was hoping for was only a dream in my head. That is when I slipped into a deep depression. Movies like the Matrix and Vanilla sky only made things worse for me. It made me feel like the computer programmers around the world were teasing me. I watched as companies like Microvision developed head mounted displays that have incredible resolution. Between 1999 and 2002 I spent at least $50,000 on hardware and software in a futile attempt to get a realistic virtual experience. I get so angry whenever I read or watch television and I see all of the incredible technology that is being developed for the U.S military. Why can’t someone use the technology that is out there to give people a peaceful or fun virtual experience? It would not be so bad if I could at least go to an IMAX theater and watch a good movie on a dome screen. I would be willing to pay $100 or more to see a movie like The Cell or Requiem For A Dream in IMAX 3D. For some reason most people can’t see the possibilities of virtual reality. I am going to write a small list of things that I believe should exist now and in the near future. 1. In the present- A virtual reality entertainment center in some large North American cities where people can go to watch real movies on IMAX dome screens and play high quality 3D video games in a private room on dome screens that are about 60% to 75% smaller than your average dome screen. I also believe that people should be able to make money from playing video games. Imagine walking into a room and seeing a large dome screen and a formula 1 racing car. You proceed by sitting down in the car and selecting an option that is appearing on a small screen on the steering wheel of the car. You then proceed to chose to race nine people that are doing the same thing that you are doing. Each person pays a fee to play the game and they all decide to wager $100 on the race. The prize structure would be 1st place $500, 2nd place $300 and 3rd place $200. That is just one example of the many possibilities of wagering money on video games. It would be much healthier than gambling in a casino or playing video lottery machines in a bar because each wager would be based on skill not luck. And the players that are making bets would get the same rush of dopamine that most gamblers get without having to deal with the ridiculous odds in casinos. You would be able to play games that involve strength, speed, timing, and intelligence. For example, imagine playing a game like track and field that involves pushing one button to build up speed. If the best human beings can push a button ten times in a second. How many times do you think a person would be able to push a button in 9.79 seconds? (The world record for the hundred meter dash) Wining or losing money would all depend on your physical or mental abilities. 2. In the present- High-tech luxury apartments in some large North American cities that would include the same smaller versions of the IMAX dome screens that I wrote about above. Imagine watching 3D television and performing most of the activities that I wrote about above. These apartments would be very expensive. They would probably cost $100,000 a month or more but I would be willing to spend that much if I could afford it. 3. In the near future- A computer program that can be your friend, teacher, or sexual partner. 4. In the near future- A computer program called that is called What Do Desire? Imagine a computer program that is as realistic as the matrix. You simply have to tell the computer what you want to experience and you can live out almost any scenario that you can imagine. 5. In the near future- I also believe that virtual reality could be used to reduce deviant desires like pedophilia. (Real pedophilia not cultural pedophilia) THE SOLUTION TO ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS Existence is information and perception. Information in the form of energy, subatomic particles, atoms, molecules, planets, stars, and carbon based life forms like us. Perception in the form of programmed reactions to the information that we receive through our five senses. You might have heard the phrase one rotten apple destroys the whole pack. Imagine that the world is a bag with five good apples in it and one rotten apple in it. The rotten apple is a representation of all of our cultural problems and our genetic problems. You can’t remove a small piece of the rotten apple and not expect the bacteria to spread. That is the problem with the world. We are not willing to do what it takes to get rid of the whole apple. Your problems are my problems and my problems are your problems. We are all connected. I am convinced that there is a way for human beings to coexist in peace. I can imagine living in world were the only misery that people would feel is the misery that they choose to feel. A lot of people are doing things to try to make the world a better place but they are not doing enough. Medical doctors have to realize is that a panacea is not going to come in the form of a pill or a serum. That is what the pharmaceutical companies out there would like doctors to believe. Unfortunately the solution to the problem is much more complex than that. Intelligent rational human beings have to get together and start a movement. Neuroscientists have to work together with computer scientists to improve our cognitive abilities and gain better control over our amygdales. (Read The Age Of Spiritual Machines by Ray Kurzweil to understand what I am talking about) Geneticists have stop worrying about ethics and do what ever it takes to make life better for human beings. Liberal open minded politicians in every democratic country around the world have to work together to give people more privileges and to help scientists speed up the process of evolution. People around the world also have to be willing to make a slow process from capitalism to socialism. People have to be willing to abandon most of their old traditions. I believe that I have the right ideology to solve most of mankind’s problems, but what I believe is irrelevant because I don’t have masters’ degree or a PhD. And I don’t have the money or the motivation to change the world. All I can say is that we have to stop being controlled by our emotions. The universe has blessed us with a large prefrontal cortex but very few people actually use it the way they should. Especially the orbitofrontal region and the dorsolateral region. I can only hope that a few people out there will be influenced by what I wrote.