Learning about things like evolution and other related realities has pretty much destroyed my spirit and hope. To know that at my age I basically can’t achieve anything great because my brain is not plastic enough anymore. To know that I’m not capable of anything because my genetics determine my boundaries and capabilities. To know that I’m not in control of my life because of the reality of determinism. It all just crushes me.
Now in my late 20s, I’ve not yet began to pursue my dreams, and I’ve been informed by the scientific consensus that I might as well not even try because it’s too late. I’ve even heard that learning something like math is next to impossible by a certain age.
All of this just crushes me. Makes me feel like life is not worth living because I’m just some incapable slab of meat. The realities are too harsh to deal with. I truly wish it weren’t so. I feel like life is wasted and I’m just waiting to die now.
So in essence, life is ****ing bullshit! It’s not the world you’re sold in grade school where everything’s possible and your efforts determine your success. Rather, it’s a capricious, futile thing wherein everything is set from the moment you’re conceived. It makes me not want to live.
Edited by Virtual, 22 September 2018 - 10:50 PM.